The fatigue, confusion, and despair that come with depression, while listening to Death Cab For Cutie "Black Sun"
Tag: depression
The Candles
The candles are all mine... I light them one by one...
Surrounded
A description of the fatigue I feel when masking and trying to relate to people
That Ship Has Sailed
Above I've never felt like What they say On their own When I feel So alone Love Is it the answer Is it the key That we hold When we feel ourselves Growing old You should know I gave you all I tried to make it Beautiful I may have tried I think I failed … Continue reading That Ship Has Sailed
Ghosts & Sand
A fictional (!) tale of a suicide in West Texas, written to Court & Spark "To See the Fires". One of my favorite writings.
The River
I walk down a lonely road Because I got no other place to go The desert lakeshores should be comforting But they don't take away any pain I'm still left wondering what happened I'm still confused about my part in it I think it stems from long ago When first came the rain I walked … Continue reading The River
Waiting Around To Die
It's way too late to ruminate But I'm up anyway Thinking about conversations gone by And how we got to where we are now I've been thinking if you want to go Then you should go It'd tear me up inside to say goodbye But it's better than Waiting around To die I'm not sure … Continue reading Waiting Around To Die
Someone Palatable
Crawling down a dark wet tunnel Can't see me under here Scratching at my skin Can't see where I'm going What's going on up above? What are the normal people doing? Are they tapping each other on the shoulder? Are they grabbing a bite to eat? And I'm down here by myself Got to make … Continue reading Someone Palatable
Churchill
In the darkness I pray for daybreak Never happy Till the sun comes In the mirror I'm just a stranger Confused and lifeless Pale and hollow There's a shadow around every corner Sitting, waiting Teasing, baiting There's an angel sitting on my shoulder Eerily silent Must be sleeping If I can find another moment, like … Continue reading Churchill
Let It Go (Too Far Gone)
A fuller fleshing-out of "Don't Feel Much" (written 2009-April-18). Although mostly fictional, it is partly a true story; I have lived many of these elements.
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